What do I want to say today?

Well I have lot to say, but just find it difficult to express myself.  As the days are passing and the big prestigious meeting is getting closer, there is more and more confusion happening. A lot goes between orders passed and getting work done. For those who are seniors find it easy to give commands, but a lot goes in getting work done. And then why do we forget that this world is not my fathers sweets shop where I can order and things will be done. 

Today I am in a better frame of mind, because I have realized that I  am responsible for my happiness and sadness and it is not a late realization.  The  fortune cookie told me 'Try mediation with your enemies'. So I did try  and after all whats the point of living with anger and resentment. Sometimes we know we are doing a mistake, but we still do them because at that point of time maybe that is giving us happiness. I know there are consequences later on , so never regret anything later on because what you regret today, is what you really wanted at one point of time. 

So no regrets what ever happened good or bad, it had to happen.  I believe in this and I believe in myself. 

The Big Grand Life

There is a story in everybody's life to be told. There are some pages of life we don't want to open.

Relationships are so complicated, where they start and where they end, no one knows. I some times fathom on how we form relations with unknown people, there are no rules, there is no set criteria and there is no type. Just when its over its called a mistake and when its successful ....... ( i dont have words)

This is my old habit of starting something and not finishing it. I give up half way! I dont have the patience of carrying it through. This is wrong I know, but what to do?

So the update on the meeting is that we finally have more money to spend, Boss just got some more funds, so now it will be a Grand Meeting.   And in this grand life and grand meeting, I am lot in my small World of thinking.

The Saturday, and the Big Prestigious Meeting

My professional life is revolving around this Big Prestigious Meeting, I have found some thing to write about and divert my mind. Some times writing can express more than you can say.

So it is a saturday and I am down with fever. Who is to be blamed, the bug going around the second floor where I have been transferred or the pressure of the meeting (haha) or the hangover from the thursday night party. The mid week party was on the occasion of return of our dear  friend Suchi , who used to work with us before in the present office. She has come back after two years.. It was a fun night with all the masti. She has now moved to London ( my city) . After ages just the four of us Jayshree, Anubha, Suchi and Anant fhe old gang got together on the terrace. Terrace is our favorite hang out place, its actually where Anubha and Jayshree stay and Suchi use to live there before. We have all our friday parties, birthday parties, shaadi parties, farewells on that terrace. Not to forget rains are best enjoyed  there. I shall soon get pictures and write more about it.

Jayshree

The party was simple fun, with getting drunk to all the conversations, where you don't have to think before speaking and the favorite Kachori breakfast. 

Anant and Suchi

I think the fever has saved me today for not showing up at the office, but I have to make sure I am all set to resume work on monday. Or my boss will be down with a fever .

Some pictures from old collection

Suchi and Me 2007

Same place, different story

My organization has two offices, I use to sit in one which was not the main office. Less people, silent place and a beautiful basement. In my past two years with this organisation I have moved desk about 4 times and n number of times since I have joined this place, 4 years now. Thanks to the Big Prestigious Meeting,  I have moved to the main building, second floor just under Boss's nose.

This is a huge office, but we always seating issues, one has to always displace another to get a place to sit. This has always happened and will continue to happen. This time I displaced Aimy, she has created a temporary seat for herself. 

Though I am back to the same desk, where I use to sit earlier. But I feel alienated, not feeling so comfortable here any more.  It is the same place but a different story. Things have change, I have change. There are so many people here, more noisy. The only thing good is that I have my friends here. 

There is some one I dont want to see but this experience is also making me strong. When you least expect life takes it turns and all you have to do is deal with it without any choice. 

And about the meeting yesterday I was sent to Gurdwara for official purposes, nice treat to Halwa and Peace. 

Update on the Big Prestigious Meeting

Yesterday I left office 15 minutes earlier, by the way I had completed my full working hours, since I had my law classes and I know in the coming days with this big prestigious meeting I will be busy, so let me catch up on studies. 

I had just reached half way when my colleague called and informed that boss was looking for me, I couldnt have returned. Well apart from coordinating this meeting there is something else I am coordinating, the messed up life. So I had actually wanted to get out of the thinking mode.

 Luckily technology has advanced so much, that even when some one is desperately trying to call you, your  can put your phone on offline mode. So this saved me for sometime, but I knew when I switch to online mode there might be surely something to put me offline.

Yes there was a long sms, by boss it started "I am really quiet disappointed and ended I know you can do it" . But thanks for the motivation and trust.

So here I pull up my socks, 9:20 in the office today, shifting to the desk close to the Boss and here I go with the big prestigious meeting. 

More updates following

Its not that easy

No matter how many times you rehearse a situation in your head
and hope all will be fine,
No matter how good actor you are, nothing goes fine.


No matter when you want to run, you have to face it,
No matter how smart your brains are, you do act insane.

No matter you have hundred words to say you become deaf and dumb,

The Big Prestigious Meeting

Update on the big prestigious meeting, I was in office today at 9am, yes exactly even the guard of the office building commented on this. I was here before my boss came to office. He didnt come until 9:40am, 25 minutes and in all 40 minutes later than decided. But he made sure he gave the instructions for ' things to do today' on the phone, before he was even there.


This is hilarious, one of my colleague a young Human Rights lawyer who was recently beaten up by the police and is one of the speaker at the meeting thinks it is one of the good opportunity for the police for a meeting of such kind. Why because this big prestigious meeting has whose and who of the Human Rights World. He thinks the police can plan and arrest all of us for being together at one place. Just one of the jokes to reduce the pressure.

My life ressembles my room..... Messed Up!!

Well though I dont guarantee that I am going to write regularly, but it is just that its four infact four thirty in the evening and I think I am off for today. As in I started work early today, with my boss calling me 8:30 in the morning. My boss at times get these panic attacks, so he makes sure others are also not left out. The first thing he asked me what time I will be in office? And i gently replied, recovering from my heart attack ( you see 8:30am and call from Boss is not something exciting) to get back I sofltly replied 9:30 I will be there. Just to let you know that office timings are 9:30 onwards. The next things he tells me " make sure you are in office by 9:15 from tomorrow, so that I can discuss with you before going to court"

FYI he wants me to be early because I am organising this big prestigious ( as said by boss) Meeting and so that all his fresh thoughts in the morning can be put across and be implemented. Well I have become more of an event organiser than a social worker/ activists. Today Anubha rightly said I should rather start an event management company, I will earn better.

Well these days I am traveling all over the city, from home to office to College and then back to home.
FYI 2: I got through Law, after all that Supreme Court orders and a delay of two months. I am student back again , I dont know why I am studying so much, this very unlikely of a Minocha. . My parents are super confused, typical patriarchal thinking if the girl studies too much, she will definitely question more and she will surely be more argumentative. As if those who dont study dont argue or get into fights, mom please check your facts. And the best comment ever given to my mom, that a girl studying to law or a lawyer is more prone to crime. Hello?  where do these facts come from? Anyway I was very happy to see the support of people on facebook, all the people who liked my status update, I could feel they were geniunely happy for me.

So now the messed up life consist of a boss, the big prestigious meeting, report deadlines, classes,exams and a screwed mind. And to be honest I am not a Neat freak, I just dont know where to start.